Addiction

ad·dic·tion

 

: a strong and harmful need to regularly have something (such as a drug) or do something (such as gamble)

: an unusually great interest in something or a need to do or have something

 

We all have one. Whether we can admit it or not. I have many. Fortunately for me they don’t involve drugs of any sort. But it doesn’t mean they aren’t bad addictions. I have for a long time struggled with a spending addiction. I like to shop, and my closet and dresser proves it. This is an addiction that got worse through heartbreak. I did not turn to drugs or alcohol (in a sense that I could control whether I drank or not), but I did turn to malls. New clothes made me feel better about myself. (Can you relate?)  Over time I did develop other addictions too. Social media has been a huge addiction for me. Facebook for some reason can keep me so captivated to the point I lose interest in other things. Sometimes I find I can’t even concentrate on a TV show or movie because I might miss a status or update. Too many conversations include “oh yea, I saw that on facebook”. We as a society are starting to lose personal connection with our friends and family over this. How often do you call an old friend to see what is new in their life or how they are doing, you see it on facebook so you already know right?  Wrong!

I always laugh when people comment how great my life is, and how well I look like I am doing. Don’t get me wrong, I do have a great life and I love what I am creating, and I love who surrounds me. But on the other end, I do get sad, I do feel like I’ve failed and I do feel lonely, I just don’t share it on facebook. I hate putting forth negativity, so I just don’t. Truth be told I have deleted a few friends because of their continuous negative updates.

So yes, I know, I post a ton. I post pictures everyday. I love to speak through picture. We only have one life so we might as well capture it and remember it. But I have decided to keep this a little more private, or should I say a little less on facebook. I have decided that facebook has become my latest addiction and I just want to cut it, cold turkey. I cut it for a while weekend once, and it was easier than I thought so now I am challenging myself to give it up for a longer period of time. Starting today, October 1st, I am going to focus on more important things in my life and less on social media. I have decided I will stay active on my twitter and instagram account and I would like to focus on my blog much more, but I am cutting facebook. This will be a tough challenge for me. I can’t tell you how many times I pick up my phone and go through my facebook newsfeed. Such a time waster.

My decision couldn’t come at a better time. I am starting hot yoga teacher training soon which means my mind is going to be filling with so much new information that I am ecstatic to learn about, so I want my attention to be 100% focused on training. I also want to take my time away from facebook to continue to focus on who I am, who I want to be and I want to get back to my real relationships with my friends. Actual voice time, actual face time. I want to take the “I saw that on facebook” out of my sentences. (I might need to cut pinterest cold turkey too)

I am looking to gain a positive experience from this. I am looking to cut the addiction. Facebook rehab I’ll call it. So please continue to check out my blog and if you are on twitter or Instagram I always love new followers 🙂  twitter – @iamcailee  or Instagram – caileelee.

 

 

 

 

 

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