Resolution

It’s January 11th and I finally wrote down (and thought of) my resolutions. (Top 10 in no particluar order.)

  1. Write more (ironic, eh). Journaling, Blogging, Saving my thoughts essentially.
  2. Read more. This has been an ongoing resolution.
  3. Listen more. We can all do better with this.
  4. Grow as a teacher. (theming, sequencing, dharma)
  5. Multi-task less. Putting down my phone (ie: social media, email, other time wasting activities) while I’m eating dinner, watching tv/movies, etc.
  6. Stay authentic. Last year I chose to be myself and say things that I truly mean, understand and practice in my own life. It’s working well.
  7. Worry less.
  8. More family time.
  9. More friend time.
  10. Be 1/3 closer to debt free. (goal, debt free by 33.)

Dreamin’

I woke up today with an immense feeling of gratitude. Lately I’ve had a lot of questions of purpose and what I’m meant to do. I’m feeling very successful in many aspects of my life, however I’ve also had a huge burden of stress over things I can’t control. I’ve taken a lot of time for just me lately, and it sure has been fulfilling. I am getting a better understanding of who I am, what I need, what I want, what makes me my best self and what makes me happy. Until we find ourselves we can’t find happiness in anything or with anyone else. 

I woke up before my alarm today so I actually took time to read. I picked up a daily meditation book my mom gave to me years ago. Today’s reading couldn’t have rang truer to the things I’m facing. It’s so easy to fall into the trap of self-pity and feel not good enough. That is exactly what I’ve faced. So today I change that, today I do what I preach and I take a step to be my best self. There is so much in this life to do, so much I can offer and so many ways I can make all my dreams come true.  
 

You did that juice cleanse again?

I made it, day 3 of the cleanse. This time around has been much easier than last year, even with the temptations of bagels, Rice Krispie cupcakes and fajita kabobs! I did the pro cleanse this time from Juice so Good and I have noticed my tummy has felt very full this time around with all the greens in the pro cleanse! Also my teeth have felt less gritty than last time, bonus! 

I did eat some raw veggies and guacamole last night and it was just enough to help me realize how much I want to focus on clean eating (even though the bowl of chips was quite a temptation, did I mention the grilled chicken too) I actually was so full after the veggie snack that I only consumed 5 juices yesterday.  Thanks to my friend Jessie and her encouragement to say no to the chips! Glad I fought the temptation! 

I think I’m going to skip through this last day with flying colors and maybe even have a veggie treat again tonight! Glad my students,  Travis and Jessie  encouraged me to cleanse with them! It has been a great experience! 

  

  

 

Music is my motivation 

One of my favorite parts about teaching yoga is I can use music to make the experience greater. Music can motivate and inspire. A great beat makes me want to squat lower, hold plank longer and push my students to their edge. Here is part of my latest playlist for yoga sculpt. (The beauty of spotify is I change my playlists weekly 😜)

  

The News stole Christmas

I keep thinking I am the Grinch this year. I haven’t been in the Christmas spirit at all. When I think about it I realize I am not in the Christmas spirit in the sense of shopping and buying gifts, but when I really reflect I am in the Christmas spirit in the sense of wanting to celebrate the real meaning of Christmas.
The true meaning of Christmas is love. John 3:16-17 says, “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.”

The true meaning of Christmas is the celebration of this incredible act of love.

How can we love when the news is showing nothing but hate, violence, death? It’s making it very hard to love the world and the people in it.

I’ve been really trying to understand the hate and violence towards different races, towards authority, towards family, towards friends. In my own opinion acts of violence come from self insecurities. Thinking you’ll feel better if someone else is hurting. But really I feel best when I’ve helped others be happy. Can’t others do the same?

To celebrate Christmas this year I will be cherishing time with my friends, time with my family, time with my yoga students. Giving love to not just others, but self love. Being positive towards myself and in turn sending positive happy vibes to others so they can do the same. I have had so many amazing experiences this year. Trip of a lifetime to South Africa and Malawi. Meeting so many amazing people who live life so simply, who through poverty keep the biggest brightest smile on their face. I took a huge leap of faith this year by quitting a job I was in for 12 years, and I landed quite nicely at a place that has made me feel very welcome. I have been here for just short of 2 months, but I have built incredible relationships, grown as a person and have been challenged out of my comfort zone. I look forward to what the coming months and years bring with this change.

I don’t want to turn my back to what is going on in this world, but I do for the next few days want to truly reflect on the real reason for the season. I am grateful for so much and so many. Merry Christmas.

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I encourage you to write down 5 reasons to be happy and love. Mine are:

1. God and the love he provides even when i’m feeling down.

2. Family and the life I share with them through tough times and happy times.

3. Friends and the support, encouragement and laughs they provide.

4. The jobs I have and love so much, the support of co-workers, clients, students and all they give each day.

5. The past year and how my eyes have opened to a different part of the world.

Whirlwind.

July 15th 2002 I started a job. September 29th 2014 I decided to put in my notice.

I was a huge ball of emotion. I just quit my job. October 31st will be the last day of the known. November 1st is the first day of the unknown.

12 plus years, almost half of my life I have spent at a company that kept me content, kept me employed but has kept me from chasing my dream job.

I have been afraid to step away from comfort. I have been afraid that I am not good enough for anything else. I have been afraid of failing. I have been afraid because I don’t know what the heck I want to do.

I have a constant passion for life, making it better, making people happy and providing people with the exact treatment they deserve. I have thrived in my job by building relationships with customers, with co-workers, with manufacturers.

So why am I stepping away from comfort? It is long overdue. I have feared letting go. I have feared the unknown.  Something finally clicked. If I continue to make excuses and wait to step away, I will always stay at this job. I will not move forward in the direction I want.
Now is my time.

Since my notice I have received an outpouring of support from every aspect of my life. It has made me realize my worth, my potential and that I have a crap load of people that support me. It has also shown me there is a lot out in this world that I can do. It may be silly that I don’t know exactly where I am going, or what I will do, but I am lucky enough to have a few things to focus on to keep my bank account afloat.

Last week was emotionally draining and emotionally fulfilling. I finally let go. I think this transition ultimately is bigger than just letting go of a job. It is letting go of a huge part of my past. Something that in general has continued to hold me back.

So you may think I am silly or crazy for letting go, but I think I am ready to go take on the world!

 

Life.

Wow. Where has the time gone. 2014 is flying. I have been terrible about posting. Life has been busy, full and rewarding. I spent most of August and the beginning of September in South Africa and Malawi. If you weren’t following my blog about that, please check it out. andrewcaileeafricanadventure.wordpress.com  I still have plenty to post there, but for now I am have been at a stand still transitioning back to life. I dove back in head first which was good and bad. I adjusted to the time change quickly, but my body did not adapt back to American food very well. I really had to eat clean the first week in order to actually keep anything in me. That really says something about the food we eat here wouldn’t you say? Because of this I have decided it’s a good time to keep my eating habits just as clean all of the time. I love to indulge, but to be honest the food here feeds my body much differently than the food I ate in Africa.

With that I need to jump back on the healthy eats train and start posting my recipes again. I miss trying to cook new things. Now that I am settled into my new place and I am back from my trip, nothing should stop me.

The other big thing is dating. I have given into dating sites. I decided I can’t knock them if I don’t try them. It is a fascinating world online. More on that later. Feels good to get back on here. More to come soon, I hope 🙂

No script

Over the last 6 months I feel like I have found a whole new meaning behind my teaching. I have become a teacher, rather than an instructor. Just yesterday someone told me about a class they took with Judith Lasater. They said that she was describing the difference between an instructor and a teacher. An instructor reads from a script, a teacher teaches from their own words, there own experience, they connect with their students. This is what has happened for me. I have let go of the script and I have became me, a teacher.

I have feared taking that next step in teaching. I have feared teaching the higher level. Who am I to sequence a powerful yoga class that students enjoy. Who am I to share my own experiences. Who am I to allow my students to open up to me or share their world with me, with themselves, right there on their mat.

Who am I not to do that?

Certain experiences in life can instruct us or teach us. When you buy something new it may comes with instructions. This is how you are “supposed” to use it. Sometimes you should stick to the script, but do you always have to? In some cases, yes, but in some scenarios when you use the script as a guideline and use life experiences, observations, teachings to step away from that script you may discover something new. This discovery could be life changing. It could be the difference between instructing and teaching.

The other thing I have learned is not all experiences are the same. Some teachings may resonate with you better than others. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t accept what doesn’t resonate, but maybe look deeper as to why it is affecting you negatively. It could be a fear, something pushing you out of your comfort zone, something that is offering a challenge that you are afraid to accept.

I hear many people say what I am teaching is not Yoga. I understand it may not align with ancient teaching of yoga, but I also understand that yoga can be described differently for everyone. One type of yoga may resonate with you, and another may not. Yoga means to “yoke” or to unite. The whole idea of yoga is to connect mind, body and spirit together. Your choice of how you do that is up to you. For some it is meditation, it is quiet, it is time to self reflect with the entire world shut off. For other’s it is dripping sweat and getting your butt kicked to the sound of Rihanna or Calvin Harris. Neither is wrong. We all find a different way to connect with our self. It will be a different journey for everyone.

Start somewhere, maybe even with a script. No matter where you start remember it is a long journey of ups, downs, egos, judgements, love, hate, but most importantly self discovery. I know myself more today than I ever have. I will continue to learn, I will continue to grow. I will continue to use a script as a guideline, but I will always use life experience to be my true Self and to continue to teach others to be theirs.

 

Just Juice – Day 3

So I made it to day 3.  I honestly had doubt in my ability to not cave. I have had awesome encouragement from so many people on facebook. The private messages I received with encouragement and curiosity were awesome! I think a juice cleanse is something many people should try. The benefits are awesome. I have been most amazed at how satisfied my body has felt. I have juiced before, but I usually always ended my day with a solid meal.  This time I went all out. Just juice. I haven’t even felt the need to grab an avocado to snack on, which is allowed in this cleanse. If you fear the not eating part, listen in. Juice cleansing is NOT about depriving your body. It is quite opposite. It is about giving your body the nutrients that are needed to keep your body functioning how it is meant to function.  It is allowing your digestive system time to take a break and use that break to repair other things in your body. Basically a re-start to your system. Awesome right? Well I won’t lie, it was tough. Day 2 I wanted to cave, but I didn’t. It helped that I was doing it with friends and a lot of my yoga students. The encouragement was very helpful. What wasn’t so helpful was the people that don’t understand a cleanse and try to push not just solid food, but processed, not meant for our body food in your face. HA! I made it past your non-encouragement. So here is what I feel as I am cruising through Day 3:

What I have noticed

  • I have great energy.
  • My body just feels good.
  • I don’t own a scale, but I can imagine I have dropped a few pounds since my jeans and t-shirts are fitting loosely.
  • My skin looks like it is glowing.
  • I have been sleeping like a rock, and waking up with my alarm.
  • I have not felt super hungry in the morning like I usually do, and I feel completely satiated at night.
  • My teeth feel weird, gritty almost, because I haven’t been chewing anything (Not a fan of this part).
  • My body, stomach mostly has been making weird noises.
  • I always know to stay near a bathroom. All the liquids means many bathroom trips.
  • Drinking water as well is so important. I notice I only feel hungry when I am not keeping myself hydrated with water. Hydrate. Hydrate. Hydrate.

Please do me a favor and give back to your body. Try out a juice cleanse. Even if  it is for only one day. You are stronger than you think. It reminds me of when I have my students do planks in yoga sculpt. They don’t want to do them. Their body is strong enough, but their mind tells them to stop. Get through the mind game. You can do this. I did.

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The 6 juices I have had each day Happy Green, Deep Cleanse, Juicy Roots, The Ginger, Radiance & Green Milk

I am excited to add food back in tomorrow. My body is craving health. I thought I would want a large pizza (which does sound kind of good), But I don’t think it would satisfy me. I went grocery shopping yesterday which was kind of funny. No solid foods in two days and I surrounded myself with aisles and aisles of food. But what was in my cart was good choices. Fresh veggies & fruits. Lean turkey. Nothing that has been processed and full of junk. Excited to eat healthier as I make a new start off of this cleanse.  I will also continue to keep these juices as part of my daily jump start.

When our brain tells us we are hungry it doesn’t mean you should over-do it at the local fast food joint. Feed your body the right stuff and you will feel full and have plenty of energy to live your life each day. Life is much easier when you feel great. Start from the inside.

xoxo, C