Mirror, mirror

A few days ago I got into a bit of a heated conversation with a person I have known for years. I kept myself pretty poised through it but I’m not gonna lie it stung a bit. Not because I cared about the words he said, but because it made me realize there are a ton of people in this world that are so insecure with their own issues they choose to belittle others. 

2 months ago I quit my full time, stable, 40+ hour a week job that I was pretty good at to pursue my passion of helping people get out of their own way and find the inner spark within to be better, stronger and more confident. I myself have struggled for years with loving the body I’m in. I found most of my struggles started when I went through a marriage and divorce at 21. I was constantly putting myself down and blaming myself for things I couldn’t control. At 26 I opened my eyes and came out of that dark place. My friend got my into running and then yoga. Little did I know it was that moment that changed everything. 

I am now full time teaching people how to be free of those feelings of not being good enough and feeling confident about their bodies through fitness. So back to why I’m writing this. The “friend” I mentioned earlier asked about the new business me and my friends have started and during the conversation he mentioned that he would never go to me for fitness advice because he would only talk to people that are in shape. You can imagine how my jaw dropped. I know I am not fitness model material (at this moment 😀), but I am on an incredible journey finding my perfect body. Let me tell you, I have never felt more confident about my body than I do now. 

Why I am writing this….if you are like me and you are trying to reach certain fitness goals, do not let people knock you down! Anyone who ever tries to hate on you is just merely showing you how they see themselves in the mirror. 

My hope for him is he wakes up and realizes everyone has their battles and more importantly everyone has their successes. Shine through your success and your battles will lessen. Be you and be confident with your self. For every hater there will be hundreds that believe in you.

“Be you. Set your fear on fire.”

If you want to learn more about the business I mentioned earlier check is out on the web: http://www.grit2gold.com or Instagram: grit2gold 

First Step

“Don’t wait until you reach your goal to be proud of yourself. Be proud of each step you take toward reaching that goal.” – unknown


The way I look at it finishing 30 days on the Whole 30 is just the first step. I entered this “diet” as a lifestyle change, NOT a diet. I hate the word diet, because diets fail.

I’ve set out to feel like the strong beautiful woman I preach that others should be. To do that I’m going to be more mindful of how I consume, how I splurge and continue working towards a better, stronger self. It’s not just a physical thing. There is a huge mental piece that I definitely explored during the 30 days. Knowing that mental strength I have can push me to make this change and encourage others to join in on the fun! 

I’m addicted to snacking

Day 4 of the Whole 30 had me realizing that I am addicted to snacking. If food is in front of me I want it. I work in an office that has a never ending selection of food on the table in the lunch room. Last week included bagels (with yummy cream cheese of course), leftover Chik-Fil-A, leftover Qdoba…not just one day, but 2, M&M’s and probably more that I’m forgetting to mention. I stayed away from it all, obviously. 

Needless to say I’ve noticed my snacking addiction merely based on what surrounded me but I couldn’t have it.  If nothing else after 30 days I may be more aware of not grabbing the food just cause it’s there. Phew. 

Now I’m on day 7. A whole week has passed and I’m feeling great. I’m feeling lighter yet strong, physically and mentally. I’m also feeling very strong willed. Saturday was super tough. I picked up a bartending shift and said no to ALOT of temptations (the pepper jack cheese is my major weakness, not to mention the pizza). Luckily I made it through the night and didn’t cave. (Not even on that after work drink OR a Red Bull) 

The cool thing about Whole 30 is that I am eating food that makes me feel full, makes me crave less and has me feeling satisfied and not sluggish. 

Go to’s on week one were:

Spaghetti Squash with homemade tomato sauce.

Eggs, spinach & Italian sausage. 

LaCroix. Must Have!


Of course I ate a lot of salads too, it’s amazing how perspective can change with just a few tweaks to my choices. Food prep is a must, and being conscious of how I fuel my body is making a huge difference every single day. 

Off to week 2…..

Why are we running?

Last month I completed something I NEVER thought I would ever do.

A marathon.

Yep, that’s right, 26.2 miles all ran by me. Mentally tough, physically exhausting, emotionally rewarding.

But why do we run?

People do it for different reasons, health – long distance/sprints, one errand to the next, one meeting to the next, one activity to the next. You get my point. Our life is full of running.

All of these things we do are preparing us for the journey of life. The day after the marathon I met my friend for lunch and as I was walking into the restaurant, very slowly i’ll have you know, I realized I was walking in the same manner as the elderly couple walking out. Their marathon – life. I had a conversation with my mom shortly after and said “when i’m older, I don’t want to walk like I just finished a marathon”. But that’s what life is, a marathon right?

My conclusion is that all of these tests we put ourself through mentally, physically and emotionally, they are all pushing us to run through life. You can choose what is tough for you, you can choose what is exhausting and you most certainly choose what is rewarding.

Do something rewarding for yourself, make your life what you want it to be. AND do something that you never imagined you would.

My next challenge started yesterday….Whole 30. 30 days no sugar, no dairy, no grains. Stay tuned 🙂

Chillen Mein Laben

The last 10 days have been a ride. 

When you go on vacation and do all the things.

Germany. ✔️

Czech Republic. ✔️

Austria. ✔️

Hockey game.



Lots of beer.

Lots of friends. 

Life is good. 



  1. sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.

This year has had me doing a lot of self evaluation. There is so much hate going on in the world that I’ve really had to think “what am I doing to make the world better”. I’ve been turning to God more and really just trying to digest how we as human beings can make the world a better place. 

I am not one to hand out money to someone panhandling, or someone homeless begging for money. I guess too many stories have broke that trust. But today I met Allen. I had just parked my car and walked over to pay the meter. There was a man sitting near the pay station that started talking to me. I said hello as I had no reason not to. He responded with “Excuse me ma’am, can I ask you a question?” I responded, “you sure can”. Allen then introduced himself and continued to ask me why there was so much hate? I simply told him, Allen I’m not sure, but I wish there wasn’t. He then told me about how a man had just came by him earlier that morning and was calling him the N word and telling him he was worthless. Allen wasn’t sure why that man was so full of hate “we all bleed red don’t we?” This truly hit a cord with me. Why is there so much hate? 

Allen ended the story saying, I just wish people weren’t like that. I apologized that he was treated that way. I told Allen if he was still there when I was done with my meeting I’d buy him lunch. He lit up, I could see true pain yet true gratefulness in his eyes. 

Allen was still there when I returned just over an hour later. I gave him $10 and told him to get some food, and promise me he wouldn’t do anything else with the money. Something told me I needed to trust him and trust he truly was in need. I’ve never seen someone look so shocked by kindness. 

I got in my car and I watched him walk to the food trucks a block away, I’ve never seen someone walk with a look of gratefulness like Allen did. I’m glad I could help him today. 

To the person who spoke poorly to Allen, I will pray for you that you will be a little kinder and realize we’re all working hard to get through this life. We don’t know what people have dealt with, I’ll never know what Allens story was or why he was there today. If we all are a little kinder and filled with more compassion the suffering and terror will stop. 



It’s January 11th and I finally wrote down (and thought of) my resolutions. (Top 10 in no particluar order.)

  1. Write more (ironic, eh). Journaling, Blogging, Saving my thoughts essentially.
  2. Read more. This has been an ongoing resolution.
  3. Listen more. We can all do better with this.
  4. Grow as a teacher. (theming, sequencing, dharma)
  5. Multi-task less. Putting down my phone (ie: social media, email, other time wasting activities) while I’m eating dinner, watching tv/movies, etc.
  6. Stay authentic. Last year I chose to be myself and say things that I truly mean, understand and practice in my own life. It’s working well.
  7. Worry less.
  8. More family time.
  9. More friend time.
  10. Be 1/3 closer to debt free. (goal, debt free by 33.)


I woke up today with an immense feeling of gratitude. Lately I’ve had a lot of questions of purpose and what I’m meant to do. I’m feeling very successful in many aspects of my life, however I’ve also had a huge burden of stress over things I can’t control. I’ve taken a lot of time for just me lately, and it sure has been fulfilling. I am getting a better understanding of who I am, what I need, what I want, what makes me my best self and what makes me happy. Until we find ourselves we can’t find happiness in anything or with anyone else. 

I woke up before my alarm today so I actually took time to read. I picked up a daily meditation book my mom gave to me years ago. Today’s reading couldn’t have rang truer to the things I’m facing. It’s so easy to fall into the trap of self-pity and feel not good enough. That is exactly what I’ve faced. So today I change that, today I do what I preach and I take a step to be my best self. There is so much in this life to do, so much I can offer and so many ways I can make all my dreams come true.  

You did that juice cleanse again?

I made it, day 3 of the cleanse. This time around has been much easier than last year, even with the temptations of bagels, Rice Krispie cupcakes and fajita kabobs! I did the pro cleanse this time from Juice so Good and I have noticed my tummy has felt very full this time around with all the greens in the pro cleanse! Also my teeth have felt less gritty than last time, bonus! 

I did eat some raw veggies and guacamole last night and it was just enough to help me realize how much I want to focus on clean eating (even though the bowl of chips was quite a temptation, did I mention the grilled chicken too) I actually was so full after the veggie snack that I only consumed 5 juices yesterday.  Thanks to my friend Jessie and her encouragement to say no to the chips! Glad I fought the temptation! 

I think I’m going to skip through this last day with flying colors and maybe even have a veggie treat again tonight! Glad my students,  Travis and Jessie  encouraged me to cleanse with them! It has been a great experience!