create.

In your life CREATE space to be alone. CREATE space to be together. CREATE space to open up and share the possibilities of connection.

I have for so long struggled to be alone. Loneliness and sadness constantly looms in this space. Its very uncomfortable. Now if you know me you’re saying WHAT?!? You, Lonely? Yes my world is FULL, more full than I can balance at times. In a world of these highs also comes the world of the lows. I know I am not the only one who sits here. But I am one to share openly about it. I discover that when I share, when I connect and when I create a space for others to become vulnerable, it becomes less lonely.

This year gave me the opportunity to explore and create space with many. (all over the world in fact).  Coming off an unexpected surgery into the new year I learned to appreciate my body more. How it heals, how it grows, and how it shares feedback with me. I have learned to appreciate my friendships, my family and those who surround me everyday. I have learned to not feel bad when I can’t spread myself in every direction to connect with every person. I have learned to create alone time. I have learned to create togetherness. I have learned to connect in a bigger way than ever before. I’ve also learned to let go of the things that don’t fill my cup.

I am learning who I am in a deeper way. I am finding my real self. In the loneliness, the sadness, the happiness, the connection, I am learning to balance. I am recognizing the light of my soul as so many books have been telling me to do. Recognizing I am never alone, but connected with the universe (yes I am picturing Betty White in The Proposal when I say that). But it’s true, I am accepting what is, and letting go of what isn’t.

I am far from perfect, heck I never ever plan to be perfect. I do however plan to be perfect in my individuality and I plan to use it and do the things that I have been sent to this earth to do. This new year is going to be huge. Do you feel it!?!

Every year I plan to blog more and every year I have every single intention to do so. Then enters the crazy busy life. This year I AM NOT going to blog more, I am going to live more. I am going to experience more. I am going to CREATE more. I hope you come along for the ride.